Poem: Many times I feel alone

Many times I feel alone...
I see that this mainly happens when that which I desire isn't given to me from things on the outside, whether this is a person, place or thing.
For sure I have the urge to connect in a profound way with another but also I can see that most times I'm the obstacle of my own desire.
When I'm feeling lonely and isolated then there also opens up a new space to look at myself and question: Why is it that I feel this way?
Then I see that I've made the choice to believe my thoughts that I'm alone. I see how many times I've felt like this choosing to suffer - to feel alive.
Then I see that my prison is self-made and realize I have another choice: I can open the bars of my cage and walk outside and greet the warm sunshine.
Then I know sovereignty - breaking dependency of my endless desire to find love in the outside. I see that Love is there for the choosing, only I have to let go of my thinking head.
When there is nothing left that I desire, then I feel complete and no longer alone. I can open my arms and embrace existence Immersing myself in love.
Betsy April 20, 2003