Poem: Many times I feel alone...

 I see that this mainly happens when

that which I desire isn't given to me

from things on the outside, whether

this is a person, place or thing.

For sure I have the urge to connect

in a profound way with another

but also I can see that most times

I'm the obstacle of my own desire.

When I'm feeling lonely and isolate

then there also opens up a new space

to look at myself and question:

Why is it that I feel this way? 

Then I see that I've made the choice

to believe my thoughts that I'm alone.

I see how many times I've felt like this

choosing to suffer - to feel alive.

Then I see that my prison is self-made

and realize I have another choice:

I can open the bars of my cage and

walk outside and greet the warm sunshine.

Then I know sovereignty - breaking dependency

of my endless desire to find love in the outside.

I see that Love is there for the choosing,

only I have to let go of my thinking head.

When there is nothing left that I desire,

then I feel complete and no longer alone.

I can open my arms and embrace existence

Immersing myself in love.

~~~

Betsy

April 20, 2003